It’s been hectic the last couple of days getting ready for my husband’s second knee replacement surgery.
My office is also being remodeled at work and it’s nuts, simply nuts, attempting to find a folder, paper clip or envelope. On Monday one needed to maneuver between workmen, board members, employees and wandering community members.
This morning proved no exception. I had to drive husband into his work before returning to my work. Needed to get checks signed by a board member during points in between. (Except, during the commotion the previous day, forgot what time we were to meet.)
We met on the road. She stopped her car. I stopped my car. Didn’t know if it was really her. She backed up. Yes. With awkward manuevers alongside speeding logging trucks she signed checks and we discussed other business and, within ten minutes, we sped off in separate directions.
“What craziness!” I thought, feeling my heart beating wildly. Certainly not feeling calm and presence-filled at all.
Suddenly a moment of clarity dawned.
I saw how seeds of karma sprouted in that simple perception. By affirming craziness one created a crazy story. If you turned the kaleidoscope of perception slightly one could have easily created the story, “Wow! How lucky everything worked out so easily! It could have been so challenging if we missed one another, but look at how the Universe supported everything.”
In perfect clarity I glimpsed the way we can interpret situations “negatively” or “positively”. I saw, once again, the way our perception shapes the dream of our life.
As this clarity dawned further in the sky of mind, awareness lifted to surround both choices of interpretation. It now surrounded the awareness of witnessing both choices as perfectly “perfect” beyond the negative and positive judgement poles.
This eagle’s view perception flies beyond the human mind to simply encompass “what is”…both the negative and positive. It now rested in the non-duality of the moment, simply allowing.
The positive, of course, can make our lives easier and more comfortable as humans. The positive creates positivity in our egos, more ease in our lives. The negative so often creates more drama, more suffering.
Yet the question that always interests me these days is: what exists beyond the negative and positive? What are we REALLY besides a human ego seemingly making a choice? What are we beyond our stories of duality? What encompasses in the smallest possible view within the widest possible view? What transcends viewpoints altogether?
And how do we live in it, moment by moment? When we experience dualistic perceptions of positive and negative, how do we flap our feathers and soar into that which has never been limited by either calm or craziness?