For those of us on a “spiritual journey” it’s so easy to see who we want to be (or don’t want to be) and proceed to pare ourselves into what we imagine we want.
We often attempt to dice, slice, chop and pulse ourselves into our mind’s ideal, don’t we?
We think we should be something the mind determines perfectly 78.65% acceptable.
We roll out the lists of should’s.
We should be kinder, less angry, give more money to charity, quit saying inappropriate things, speak from our heart instead of our side pocket, quit drinking, quit checking email so much, start volunteering at the local shelter, oh, you just add the latest pronouncement your Ego made in an effort to make you more. More this, more that. Something other than you are.
I want to say that this has been my biggest challenge. I believed, truly believed, that I was somehow flawed and needed to change in order to become spiritually enlightened.
(And I see this in 99.2% of all people I meet. That’s because that’s Ego’s job. Ego tries to dream us out of the present moment. Ego wants to create, create, create something other than what appears! You gotta love Ego; she’s so often our creative muse, attempting to sing us into the next dream, and the next. Unfortunately, by believing her, we usually miss the delightful present moment.)
What a relief to discover that we’re not as flawed as Ego attempts to convince us!
In fact, most of our flaws accelerate when we attempt to become who we aren’t. The flaws fight back and increase. They become furious that we’re playing an elimination game and soon we’re caught in a compulsive trap of wanting, fighting, wanting, fighting.
We can perhaps relax into who we are–with all our flaws–seeing that we’re not the Ego, we’re everything that arises in front of us (your computer screen, your cup of steaming coffee, the scissors, the bird flying by)–as well as realizing that we’re nothing except pure consciousness.
The allowing of the present moment, without trying to fix it, seeing it from the perspective of the All/Nothing can slowly (or instantly) allow us to encompass “what is”.
Written by someone who has not been willing to “let the ego be”…and even that can be accepted with a smile. Or you can accept the frown that comes when the ego disagrees. You can jump in anywhere and accept what’s arising. Simply anywhere.