Yesterday I wrote about the value of spiritual inquiry. How it’s possible to realize layers of truth. What was true for us yesterday may not be true today. When our body contracts it’s often signalling that we’re perhaps following an old truth. The fresh truth waits for us to greet it.
Inquiry helps us explore our conditioning. It can assist us in seeing more clearly. It can be helpful at different junctures, assisting us in removing our blinders of limited perception.
On the other hand, inquiry can be conceptualized into a technique which keeps us more identified as a separate self. I have seen this in my own inquiry. It can create an effect that the questioning person is actually separate from the whole of flowing life. It can attempt to cement a belief that “this is my life” or “I am trying to fix my life” or “I need to get rid of my conditioning” or “I need to understand” or “If I just get rid of what I don’t like about myself or others, I will be Okey-Dokey.”
What seems clear–in this moment–is that sometimes Life wants to inquire and sometimes Life has no desire to inquire. Sometimes the Universe wants to explore our conditioning as a separate self, and other times it’s just gobbledygook. Sometimes no intellectual understanding is required. Sometimes it’s not even helpful.
In another instance, there may be resistance to inquiry. Sometimes that resistance signals the need for inquiry–what is being resisted and why? In another instant, no resistance surfaces. This can be a very subtle art, listening to the winds of the Universe, can’t it?
Sometimes a negative expression comes out from another person. It’s no big deal. Ahhh, Life is expressing this negativity through this apparently separate individual. No contraction from a sense of self that doesn’t want to contract. The practice of inquiry, as a religion or inclination, does not arise. It’s simply what it is. No need to make it into a six-hour search to discover the roots of truth and honesty. Next moment, please.
It is fascinating to watch this. If we’re attached to either inquiry or not-inquiry, we may suffer. If we allow Life to inquire or not-inquire, it’s just endless flow. One minute we’re exploring depths of what’s true–in this moment. The next moment we can’t even find the energy to even try. It doesn’t even make sense.
The Universe doesn’t have anything against the separate self, against conditioning. It IS expressing itself infinitely in a trillion forms. It embraces itself unconditionally.
(You can inquire about that or drop it like a hot potato. Life will do what it wants anyway. It will say, “This is wrong!” or “This is right!” and wink at itself as it passes by. A new truth presents itself, or it doesn’t.)